I’m CELEBRATING the fact that 18 years ago (1 SEP 1995), is when trusting PAPA and obeying His Word was finally beginning to be enough for me — no matter what it cost me. HalleluYAH!!! 🙂
In a nutshell, this is what happened:
KING YESHUA gave me such a desperation for Him and Him Alone, that I was finally willing to cling to His Strength (rather than my own), and to face Him as He Truly Is — and myself as I truly was.
This made it possible for me to begin surrendering my homosexual behaviors, feelings, and identity to His Lordship. He also gave me His Tenacity to surrender my gender-identity confusion, self-hatred, secrets, and self-protective walls that I’d had for decades. He provided me with not only Himself and His Word, but also safe, trustworthy people to walk alongside me as I dealt with the damaging effects of over 13 years of childhood sexual, physical, emotional abuse and neglect.
Today, I’m also celebrating what He’s CURRENTLY doing in my life (a.k.a., “hot-off-the-press!”). 😉
PAPA hasn’t ever wanted me to “talk-out-of-fear” (or be “silent-out-of-fear”). Yet, fear has been a life-long destructive habit in my life, but I didn’t truly see it for the harmful problem it was until FEB 2012. He’s changed me a lot regarding fear-based-talking and I still have a LONG ways to go, but that’s okay because He only wants me to live ODAT! (One Day at a Time!) 🙂
I’m also working on obeying Him by writing on a regular basis (ta-daa!) :-), along with basic physical self-care like DAILY healthy nutrition, DAILY strength-training and stretching, DAILY teeth-brushing and flossing. (Yes, I’ve been having some trouble with those DAILY healthy habits!) 😉
And last, but not least, I’m taking “baby-steps” in fully surrendering all of my femininity to Him so He can continue maturing me into the Beautifully Captivating Princess Daughter He Created me to be! YAHOO!!! 🙂
That is the “nutshell” version. I pray what I’ve shared enCOURAGES you to surrender whatever you’re holding onto — whatever it is that is hindering you from fully responding to PAPA’S Great Love for you when He says, “Come to Me, Child, and I will give you My Rest.”
Keep on taking baby-steps towards KING YESHUA, dear Readers! You are worth it! PAPA says so! 🙂
In HIS Great Love!
One of KING YESHUA’S Beautiful Warrior Princess Daughters!
OORAH!!! \/ 🙂
ALL For PAPA’S Glory!!! 🙂
18 years is awesome. You go girl. I have seen your growth in just the 4 years that I have known you. I love being on the CRI team with you.
Thank you for sharing such enCOURAGING words, Connie! And I am grateful for you & your TEAMwork with CRI, as well!
Love you, lady!
Thanks for sharing your story. I’m encouraged in my desire to abide in the true vine and my fight against fear.
Woohoo, Lizzie!!! That’s awesome news! I love the way you phrased your words – “abide in The Vine” and “fight against fear” – woohoo!
Thanks for sharing your enCOURAGING words! Much appreciated, Warrior Princess!
Love you bunches & hope to see you later this week!
Melanee, thank you for being so open and honest. It is not easy to face your giant and do battle head-on, trusting Jesus to give you strength to conquer and win the battle. Without Jesus’ power, strength and promise, this battle would have been lost. You have not only trusted and obeyed, but have become a princess warrior to help others facing this and similar giants. I love the fact that you are unashamed in moving forward in your life, giving God all of the glory. Continue to obey the Lord, and trust Him for your strength. He will guide your path. Continue writing. Oh, and keep brushing and flossing, and keep smiling.
You ate SO right, Donna! Without KING YESHUA’S Power, Strength, & Promises — I have no hope!
I remember what it was like to be without hope & it’s a horrible existence! But what wonderful news it is to SURRENDER to my Best Friend! HalleluYAH! 🙂
Thank you for your enCOURAGING words — reading them strengthens my heart — thank you!
Oh – and so you’ll know – I just finished brushing my teeth! LOL 🙂
Much love in HIM Who Is my HIGH KING!