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CR Testimony (plus!) — 1 JUN 2018

 

It’s READY!!! My prayer is for PAPA to use this video of my 1 JUN 2018 CR testimony (plus a “bibliography,” as well as two “addendum” videos!) toΒ Radically & Powerfully TRANSFORM people’s lives! HalleluYAH!!!
SHALOM!

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Confessions Of A Rebellious Flosser

Yo, Readers!!!

I’d like to share a little story that might seem to have nothing to do with brushing and flossing my teeth at night, but stick with me and I think PAPA will radically bless your heart!

In KING YESHUA’S Great Love!

Beautiful Brave Beloved Warrior Princess Melanee Lisa
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I no longer have sexualized same-sex attractions — thank You, PAPA!!
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Yet…they did not go away by attempting to make-them-go-away — does that make sense?

Actually, I did initially pursue “making them go away,” but fortunately, PAPA had introduced me to Pamela Vest Valentine, a wise, Spirit-filled therapist who let me know that to do so, would just be a Band-Aid. She was a “client-centered” therapist, so she was willing to go that route if that’s what I really wanted, but she also told me that it would not deal with what actually needed to be dealt with — the roots.

The real problems, she said were **not** my homosexual feelings. Rather, she said that my problem was the same problem everyone has:

1. My (mis)perceptions of GOD,
2. My (mis)perceptions of myself, and
3. My (mis)perceptions of GOD and me together.

I immediately asked (it was closer to a demanding growl), “What am I supposed to do with all these other people around me??!!!”

Her eyes were compassionate, while her tone was firmly serious when she replied, “Nothing. You are to do absolutely nothing with other people until you have dealt with the first three areas — enough. And only GOD knows when enough-is-enough.”

She gently continued, “Melanee, you make people your gods…”

OUCH!!!!!!!

(Think, a hard punch to my abdomen, knocking the air out of me — maybe a hard jab to the face, too! And believe me when I say, I wanted to verbally punch her lights out!!)
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What PAPA Told me that day through my therapist was this:

If I keep The-Main-Thing-The-Main-Thing…

— My focus being on KING YESHUA and no one else, following Him wherever He leads me; obeying Him (eventually!) in everything He calls me to do; resting IN Him; crying on His Shoulder; letting Him Comfort my hurting, fearful heart; running to Him when others have hurt my feelings; repenting when I disobey Him; accepting His Forgiveness (particularly in visualizing His Cleansing, Healing and Strengthening, Maturing of ALL of me — spirit, soul, body); and much, much more —

…then my ENTIRE life changes!!

HalleluYAH!!!!!!!
WOOHOO!!!!!!!
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A bonus was that my sexualized same-sex attractions dissipated and now…I only have GOD-Given same-sex attractions and opposite-sex attractions like PAPA originally designed each person to have!!!

You might be thinking, “When is she ever going to talk about the hot topic of brushing and flossing?!”

I’m getting there!
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The “stuff” I battle today is just as sinful. And any one of them can become destructive strongholds, just like the homosexuality, pornography, and masturbation used to be.

If you’re thinking, “Wow! What could be just as ‘bad’ as sexual sin?” then you’re caught in the same trap that I sometimes get caught in, as well.

Sin — all sin — is destructive, because I’m disconnecting myself from being intimately connected to PAPA.

Okay, I won’t keep you in suspense anymore!
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I currently struggle against obeying PAPA in four (out of five) areas He’s Told me to do.

He’s Called me to:
Speak and Write (that’s actually two things together as one), and He’s Told me to Exercise, Eat, Brush my teeth, and Floss my teeth, EVERY day.

Every. Single. Day.
No. Matter. How. Tired. I. Am!!!

And other than eating, most days I fail MISERABLY in the other four categories. Yes, I said most days.

(FYI — eating actually means eating healthy and taking my meds and supplements.)

Well…since I celebrate the Sabbath from Friday evening to Saturday evening, I get a little break, because I only need to eat, brush, and floss during that timeframe!
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There ya go! Those are the things that are currently embarrassing me when I’m not obedient. I “tell on myself” to my Sponsor and other accountability folks on whether I’m obeying PAPA or not. And if it starts getting REALLY out of hand, I call my therapist!
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In other words, I still have DAILY battles that I can get focused on, ashamed about, worried about, and ask questions like, “Will this EVER change?” or “Will I EVER want to obey DADDY every night about brushing and flossing my teeth???!!!” or “Will I EVER really write what PAPA Wants me to write?” or “Am I EVER going to exercise regularly regardless of the pain?”

You get the picture — and I am not exaggerating!

I really feel those things, think those things, and experience those things.

I can even think SO insanely that I start believing that my value is determined by whether or not I’m obeying PAPA…oh, my…

Another way to phrase that would be a slight variation on what my therapist said back in 1995. Instead of making other people my gods, I’m making my struggles my gods, my obedience my gods, and I can even make my disobedience my gods! Yikes!!!

Something one of my long-distance mentors, Bob Hamp, says goes something like this, “Whenever I make anything other than PAPA my GOD, then I’m plugging into the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, rather than The Tree of Life — KING YESHUA Himself!”

Talk about knowledge becoming a set-up for misery — yikes!!

So, Precious Readers, I share all this to hopefully communicate to you the absolute importance of you “plugging into” PAPA, seeking and pursuing His KINGdom and His Righteousness, rather than change.

I hope you hear me loud-and-clear — I’m *not* accusing you of pursuing change — some of you I’ve never even personally met! I’m just sharing with you how easy it is to get sidetracked off of The Main Thing.

And guess what?! I just fulfilled my writing requirement for the day, too! LOL!!! WOOHOO!!!
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Thanks for letting me share!

And REMEMBER: You’re worth it, because PAPA says so!
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Torah Is All About Love and Relationships — a.k.a., LIFE!

Howdy, Readers!

The writing below is from the early morning of FRI 13 FEB 2015. PAPA’S Blessings on each and every one of you and your families!!!

In HIS Great Love!
Beautiful Brave Beloved Warrior Princess Melanee Lisa
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I can’t **NOT** share what PAPA Revealed to me earlier this morning (FRI 13 FEB 2015)!!!
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I’m currently 53 years young and all my life I’ve been raised from a “traditional USA Christian” perspective (if there is such a thing!). Part of that perspective was the implied belief that The Ten Commandments and The Torah (first five books in The Bible) were — both collectively and individually — all about rules, rules, and more rules. They were informative and important — but…not as important as The Gospels, Paul’s writings, and The Red Letters Spoken by KING YESHUA.

In other words, the two tablets that PAPA wrote on were “all about Laws and Rules,” and whatever Moses had to say was not really relevant any more (to Christians) because The Torah was all about “Law and Performance” and we Christians were all about “Love and Grace.”

I’ve also been taught that JESUS — I call Him KING YESHUA — was “all about Love and Relationships” and wasn’t really focused on behavior. At least, not in the same way as The Torah, even though He Kept The Torah.

Additionally, I’ve been taught that He had, in essence, done-away-with-The-Law when He said that He Fulfilled The Law. (In other words, The Torah was null and void after He was on the earth.)

It was as if the two (PAPA/Old Testament and KING YESHUA/New Testament) were totally different — as if They were not even The Same GOD. I’ve even heard Christians — people I dearly love — say those very words. PAPA was Law (supposedly focused only on “outward performance”), and KING YESHUA was Love (which was supposedly focused only on “inward faith”). Although Love could be demonstrated by action, the majority of Christians I hear talking these days clearly state that actions are NOT to be required, because that would be considered “working for your Salvation.”

It’s as if all the books from The 1st Story (commonly called The Old Testament), along with The Book of James, were totally kicked into the sewage!

Anyway, there I was doing chores around the house FRI morning while listening to Hanoch Young’s teaching from March 2014 and Bob Hamp’s teaching from February 2015, and it hit me!

The Ten Commandments **ARE** all about Love and Relationships!!!!!!!
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Love is action. Love is demonstrated. Love is not a “feeling.” I’ve heard that hundreds of times! You probably have, too! (Action, by the way, is a synonym for performance!)

How did this “ah-hah” moment occur? I’m so glad you asked!!

Well, during Hanoch’s teaching, he repeatedly said that Torah is action-driven and that got me to thinking-and-pondering!

Then Bob repeatedly talked about how The Scriptures say that others will know me to be a Christian (a disciple of KING YESHUA) by my love for others; in other words, my “actions” in relationships.

Which then reminded me of KING YESHUA Saying that if I love Him, then I will obey (perform) His Commandments. (Please note that He’s talking about MY love for Him — **not** His Love for me! That is a really important distinction to remember!)

So there I was thinking-and-pondering and pondering-and-thinking when it hit me! The Torah is ALL about Love and Relationships — and ultimately, Torah is about LIFE! The Torah is all about “What Is Love” and “How To Demonstrate Love” in all my Relationships! The Torah clearly describes how to Live LIFE!!!

The Torah (of which The Ten Commandments provide an “outline” for living and loving in relationships), is **not** about rules — at least, not rules that are sour and bitter tasting! The Torah is all about what KING YESHUA Says we find in Him — Life and Life More Abundantly!!!

The Torah is all about Love and Relationships the same way that PAPA IS!!! The Torah is all about LIFE the same way KING YESHUA IS!!! And in case you didn’t know, “LIFE” in Hebrew is pronounced “CHAI” (with a throaty-spit-sounding CH and a long i as in “Hi”)! And its Hebrew spelling is a Chet and a Yod (written right to left).

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So…what does all this mean to me? It means that The 1st and 2nd Stories ARE ONE, after all!!! They are **NOT** to be separated!! Isn’t this stuff AWEsome?!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!
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Thank YOU for reading, Dear Readers!
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And thank You, PAPA, for opening my eyes to an even deeper awareness of Your Great Love for me and for others! HalleluYAH!!!
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